Stepped on the scale today for the first time in a while. I only confirmed what my clothes already have known. (which is why I've been living in my pj's). Binge eating and furthering numbing myself with food to stay in denial. How did I deal with this news... Pizza, fried chicken, cupcakes and drowned myself in Gossip Girl on Netflix.
Sigh...only did it to myself. If I don't start facing my food issues I'll be. 300 lbs. before I know it.
But for right now, I feel very sick. From 1, eating foods that make me sick and 2, the number on the scale. Very overwhelming.
No big blogging plans or promises, no diets or fitness plans. Just sadness and a wave of a white truce flag. I don't want to war with my body anymore, but I don't know how to stop either...so now what..?? I just want to sleep so I don't have to think about it.
From the Inside Out..